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This time last year I was happy…engaged to a guy that I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. This time last year, he left. And my entire world changed. I spent 8 months fighting…trying to get my old life back. Then one day I woke up and it was a little easier. I can’t really put my finger on a moment when I realized that I would be ok because it just happened gradually until I found myself able to remember without being sad and to talk to him without wishing he would wake up and realize his mistake. Do I wish things were different? Yes. I wish that things had gone the way I had planned them. But I don’t regret a single decision I’ve made along the way. I will never have to live with a “what if” because I know that I offered every last piece of myself to him time and time again. I am stronger now than I was last year. I know that I can get through anything and I know that there are so many amazing people out there who are willing to help me in any way possible. I know that no matter how alone I feel, there are others going through the exact same thing. For the first time in quite a while, I am excited for my future and what is to come. So here is to fresh starts and everything being different this year :)

This time last year I was happy…engaged to a guy that I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. This time last year, he left. And my entire world changed. I spent 8 months fighting…trying to get my old life back. Then one day I woke up and it was a little easier. I can’t really put my finger on a moment when I realized that I would be ok because it just happened gradually until I found myself able to remember without being sad and to talk to him without wishing he would wake up and realize his mistake.

Do I wish things were different? Yes. I wish that things had gone the way I had planned them. But I don’t regret a single decision I’ve made along the way. I will never have to live with a “what if” because I know that I offered every last piece of myself to him time and time again. I am stronger now than I was last year. I know that I can get through anything and I know that there are so many amazing people out there who are willing to help me in any way possible. I know that no matter how alone I feel, there are others going through the exact same thing.

For the first time in quite a while, I am excited for my future and what is to come. So here is to fresh starts and everything being different this year :)

#Matt

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    THIS TIME, LAST YEAR *MAY 29th 2010* I CRIED BUT NOW, I SMILE :)
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    This time last year….God I do not even remember. I was home looking forward to the summer…planning trips to get away...
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